sad ralities.

gone with the wind! poof!

[sigh]i remember the talk i had with my father last night
i think that was the first time that i talked to him 'bout how his illness was
and then tears rolled on my cheeks. i couldn't stop them.also i couldn't
show them. now i'm wondering why.

that day, yesterday. some persons that i love went out on places far away.
it's sad but then again one of my brothers told me not to be sad
because it'd be harder for them to leave if we were like that,
i bore that in mind and besides there was nothing i could do.
it's a part of their duty but it's just that i wanted to spend more time with them
even just a little more.... :(( [sigh]

part of me wanted to cry, but i kept that "thing" in mind
instead,i wondered how to keep in touch with them [do we still have to wonder about that?while cellular phones are all around] ugh! really can't put it to words!
[i feel like crying once again...:'( but i guess it's just because i'm sleepy. hehe!!]
and then....that night. at the car,me and my father, on our way to SM,
looking at the window, hearing my father confess to me about what happened
with their check-up that day and a lot more. i cried. i actually cried..
i remember him saying "ONLY GOD KNOWS"
then i nodded ^_^